break up or make up

Dear Tyler, I've done some stupid things. I do stupid things and I have no doubt that ill continue to do stupid things. They say to let the past be the past, but something about you begs to stay in my life and my future. I refuse to let you become meaningless, you mean so much to me. You never liked to take pictures with me, you didn't like to listen to my silly problems or talk about my sad stories. You wanted to be with someone who wasn't as mentally exhausted and confusing as me. It's been a while since I've talked to you. Maybe it's a good thing. Maybe the space, the distance is a good thing. I miss you. And I'm sorry for being mean to you after things ended. It was only because I didn't want to show i still cared. I felt stupid. I won't beg you to come back, but I just want you to know how much you did and still do mean to me. I hope you find happiness with any new girl that comes into your life. It's hurts to know I'm not that girl, but as long as your happy I can deal with it . I hope we can be on good terms again. I miss when everything was okay .