i dont even exist.

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what really hurt me the most was how he looked straight through me. how he looked at me like i was a stranger. when just days earlier, the same guy, with the same eyes, looked at me like i was his everything.

he looked at me in a way i was just TOO used to.

evry guy, just looks right through me and i dont even exist. the kind of penetrating stare that makes you feel really bad about yourself.

it was stab to the heart.

i could feel my gut drop, and all my fears were confirmed. he was smiling, he was…happy. happier without me.

and that just made me feel like evrything he said, was all a lie.

the one thing he told me was that he was only happy when he was with me, how special i was , and how we didnt want anyone but me.

things change, right?

i felt so special, it was nice for a change. it was a first. and to have that all swept away, in the blink of eye? the worst.