dear sister:

dont even bother talking to me. its cool. i dont have my mom and i for sure dont have my dad. and i dont need you either. i was always the stronger one , jenni. i've deffinitley been through more than you think, and some of those things you will never know. so im fine. ive been alone and lost and so small for so long. i can deal with the pain. <- actually thats a lie. i cant deal with it anymore. you wouldnt understand certain parts of my life and why i get so upset. because you never had it like i had it. you may have gone through similar things with mom and dad, but they were never like this for you. and yes i see it is my fault but i cant help my issues. i cant help the fact that im a different person when im angry or mad. its a terrible thing and i lose all control when the devil comes over me. i know you're experiencing a hard time righ tnow and i cannot relate nor imagine.

but jeni i will be here for you, even if you never want to act like a sister

i will be here

but you dont have to be here for me

because i do not expect that from someone like you