my heart is numb.

It's been a long time coming since I've seen your face
I've been everywhere and back trying to replace everything . 
I was a lonely soul, but that's the old me.
I reach out trying to love but I feel nothing
Oh my heart is numb.

Catalyst

here the t hing . i kind of dont know really how to vocalize my thoughts. or sort through my thoughts either. i just cant seem to determine what im thinking. this whole situation just seems like a blur. i dont know what the catalyst will be, to make me realize what i actually feel, but i hope it comes soon. and what i do know is i miss you. i do a little. not enough, but enough. confusing, i know. but true it is.

the boy with two souls

im sitting here and i am numb. not as i was when iw as depressed, but numb from the pain. thank you god, for giving me the opportunity to get over tyler. thank you lord for all you have provided me. my life isnt so bad, ya know. tyler sent me a long message  it was terrible. one of the worst things i ve ever gotten. but i didnt care until he told me that one of my friends hated me. and i cried and cried and i called ryan and asked him why. and he calmed me and i love ryan as a friend so much. he is the best. but i realized that there is nthing more i can do. im not going to spread rumors or anything, he's beyond irrelevant  i realized that people like me dont have time to deal with lower people on the social ladder like tyler. tres pathetique, he is. its a shame ya know. such a cute face ruined by such a god awful, unfix-able personality. one day karma will bite him in the ass. its not my job to teach him his lessons, its god's job. and god will give him the opportunity to be a better person , hopefully one day soon. i wish him the best on his road to recover, the poor boy with two souls.

SIMPLE

hi im erin.
i like oranges and raspberries.
I'm an outdoorsy girl who loves the sun.
My favorite season is autumn. I love drawing, painting, and theatre.
I'm a very outgoing girl, some people find it very unusual. i like to sing and dance around and just be silly.
'm very weird at times, and very mature at the right times. I'm known for caring about everyone, regardless if you're "cool" or not.  I love old movies and cliche romance novels. I'm very caring and passionate. I would consider myself a leader, strong willed, but stubborn at times.

stars

what is love i ask.

who are you?
this life,
im sitting alone staring up into the milky stars, trying to count them all, only to realize it was impossible. and it's like us. impossible. the stars are so beautiful and so close. they are together and will always be. and i focus on the biggest, brightest star, and i think of you. and all our littles problems, impossible to count them all. but you are my brightest star. you are the light in my milkyway.

Shine on

its amazing how a bit of sunshine can make you happier. its even more amazing how one song can make you realize that maybe its time to get your head out of the shadows, walk chin up, and smile. shine, shine, shine on.

love story in french

tu connais la nouvelle? je casser avec tyler. je me disputer avec lui. il tombe amoureux avec moi . mais, je n'aime pas lui. je ne sais pas. je suis enervée. assez difficile à comprehend. je ne suis pas etonnée.  je ne suis pas fachée ou furieuse. je crois que, tyler est tres mechant et il est nul. je n'ai pas aime tyler, tu vois. evidemment je fais maintenant et il est parti. POURQUOI!!  je ne suis pas belle? je suis mal, embetant, mouche ??!? ecoute. je n'en veux plus. je n'en peux plus! hier, je fait encore un effort. c'etait tres amusant. je fait un poster avec le phrase " I hope she gives you aids". mes copains  pense c'est amusante. aussi c'est aidé. c'est-à-dire que, assez aider moi. j'abadonne. je craque. c'est inadmissible.