i made a mistake
at first i felt nothing, strangley numb, everything
was irrelevant yet i found it hard to keep this mistake a secret, and soont he
whole school found out. it was new years, i had planned for tyler to come over.
you see, we had become good friends again. he had called me and we spoke until
we couldnt speak anymore. we admitted to each to her how much we still cared and
wanted to share our love for each other. little did i know that i was lying to
myself, i didnt still feel that way, but wanted to believe it. he came over, and
left. and a huge mistake was made, in the back of my mind i wanted it to be
right, but in my heart, i KNEW it was wrong. i suffered from guilt and disappointment in my self and my loss of innocence. my parents read some facebook
message and found out. it was devastating. i found myself in a place i had know
too well. a dark place, empty. tyler wouldnt answer my calls, wouldnt speak to
me. and i was worried that i could be carrying a child. life was at it's
worst.
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