I just want  aboy friend who i can hop out of the shower, put on a old tee shirt and shorts and lounge around with. with no makeup, hair in a bun. I want to feel comfortable with my boyfriend, go for late night adventures, sleep on a blanket in the forest side by side, talking about our lives and us. i want a boyfriend who will give me back massages when im sore, and whom i can return the favor. i want someone who will take me out to eat at a fast food drive in and just pig out.i want to be able to lay in each others arms while watching movies, cuddling; just enjoying each others presence. i want to be able to sit comfortably in silence, and say things that dont feel forced or awkward. i want no tension, i want to be able to talk our problems out, not break up on the first fight. i want to sip on sweet tea while chilling in a lounge chair fishing in the pond. i want someone who wont tell me to stop singing around the house or singing along to songs in a car. i want a guy who will go crzy with me,do crazy things, and experience things together.

MAY 13 2013
JOSH Y U NO RESPOND
what are you doing
are you paying a trick on me
is this a joke
are you dead
what if i turn on the news and its like:
JOSH COATES FOUND DEAD AFTER GIRL TEXTED HIM "HATE YOU MORE"
what if i made you commit suicide
r u in the hospital
are you in a coma
did you get your phone taken at school
did your mom ground  you
are you stupid and cant read
did you forget

I want to change, evolve. change into something i never thought i could be. i want to be happy and spread happiness. ii want to become the inevitable. i want to acomplish the impossible